Had a revelation I believe was from the Lord yesterday about all this change in beliefs again…
I was just writing in my journal about how I am so sick and tired of all this changing. here I go again I thought… I am so tired of changing what I believe. finding out I am wrong once again… it’s so disheartening. i wish i could just settle down somewhere and be happy with that. but no, I have to continually change and go back and forth and have to revisit and study all over again whatever it is that has come back to me. Lately as I have journaled a few days ago; I had the strangest experience when I was having my quiet time. I was sitting there praying and reading scripture like usual and suddenly something clicked, broke, came apart, dismantled…I’m not sure what happened but It was like I dosed off and instantly opened my eyes back up into a very different world and all I had been so sure of was gone! i didn’t know what I believed again and was seeing how I could prove any of them wrong with the other one.
So sitting here typing out my journal and writing the sentence “I am so tired of all this change and changing all the time” as I was writing this very sentence my iPhone started to ding in text messages. I continued to write about it then checked my messages. I was shocked! it was someone favoriting some of my tweets. on my twitter account. it was this:
“To change and to change for the better are two different things.” (German proverb)
“Growth means change and change involves risk, stepping from the known to the unknown.” (George Shinn)
“The world hates change, yet it is the only thing that has brought progress.” (Charles Franklin Kettering)
“When you’re through changing, you’re through” – bruce barton
Then as I was looking back at these this morning I saw this mixed with these:
“People who never live their life today; they continuously live in past regrets or worry about future problems while neither is real” -(me) #reality
Wow! What a revelation! It has to be The Lord letting me know he was preparing me for this a few days ago when I tweeted these. Also and even more marvelous is that it totally explains what is going on and gives me a choice.
This change is a normal part of “growth”
This change is necessary – for me to go on with my journey with the Lord.
If you are growing you are changing or you’re not growing.
All growth involves risk.
Risk because you are stepping once again from the ‘known’ to the ‘unknown’ (just like what is happening)
People generally hate change, but remember it is the only thing that has brought progress
Not all these changes I have made were good – some where, I guess I’m working through that…
WHEN YOU ARE THROUGH CHANGING, YOU ARE THROUGH!
That’s not what I want. I want to go on, that will involve risk, I have to take it and go on. in order to become and grow into whatever it is that Lord wants me to be do or become as I have always prayed through all my spiritual journey.
“People who never live their life today; they continuously live in past regrets or worry about future problems while neither is real” #reality
That fits this somehow.. having put it together yet, my head is hurting…
A few thought’s I have had and noted on this:
I think my problem is that there are way too many religious sages, denominations, sects, cults, churches, ministry leaders, preachers and bible teachers that are all saying they have all the answers – they have it all figured out – “listen to me!” “I know!” “I have the light” “The Lord Himself REVEALED this to me” They start with “Most don’t know or understand this but…” or “Here’s what the bible REALLY means” All claiming The Lord’s anointing and authority; Screaming in my ears from every direction. I’ll admit, I have been one of them at times… Deep in my heart, hidden even from me, I wanted to be one of these “Special Messengers” only to fall on my face time after time… Oh I didn’t want fame or glory, I really didn’t. I just wanted to know that I knew and share it with others. I suppose this is not a bad desire; the bible says it isn’t. Although the bible warns those who would claim such authority had better have it right and would face stricter judgment than others.
1 “Dear brothers and sisters, not many of you should become teachers in the church, for we who teach will be judged more strictly.”
(James 3:1 NLTse)
“But there were also false prophets in Israel, just as there will be false teachers among you. They will cleverly teach destructive heresies and even deny the Master who bought them. In this way, they will bring sudden destruction on themselves. 2 Many will follow their evil teaching and shameful immorality. And because of these teachers, the way of truth will be slandered. 3 In their greed they will make up clever lies to get hold of your money. But God condemned them long ago, and their destruction will not be delayed”
(2 Peter 2:1-3 NLTse)
God help us all.
I was reading this morning in 2 Corinthians chapter 3 about the old and new testaments which ironically and conveniently fits in with all this…
17 You see, we are not like the many hucksters who preach for personal profit. We preach the word of God with sincerity and with Christ’s authority, knowing that God is watching us.
1 Are we beginning to praise ourselves again? Are we like others, who need to bring you letters of recommendation, or who ask you to write such letters on their behalf? Surely not! 2 The only letter of recommendation we need is you yourselves. Your lives are a letter written in our hearts; everyone can read it and recognize our good work among you. 3 Clearly, you are a letter from Christ showing the result of our ministry among you. This “letter” is written not with pen and ink, but with the Spirit of the living God. It is carved not on tablets of stone, but on human hearts.
4 We are confident of all this because of our great trust in God through Christ. 5 It is not that we think we are qualified to do anything on our own. Our qualification comes from God. 6 He has enabled us to be ministers of his new covenant. This is a covenant not of written laws, but of the Spirit. The old written covenant ends in death; but under the new covenant, the Spirit gives life.
7 The old way, with laws etched in stone, led to death, though it began with such glory that the people of Israel could not bear to look at Moses’ face. For his face shone with the glory of God, even though the brightness was already fading away. 8 Shouldn’t we expect far greater glory under the new way, now that the Holy Spirit is giving life? 9 If the old way, which brings condemnation, was glorious, how much more glorious is the new way, which makes us right with God! 10 In fact, that first glory was not glorious at all compared with the overwhelming glory of the new way. 11 So if the old way, which has been replaced, was glorious, how much more glorious is the new, which remains forever!
12 Since this new way gives us such confidence, we can be very bold. 13 We are not like Moses, who put a veil over his face so the people of Israel would not see the glory, even though it was destined to fade away. 14 But the people’s minds were hardened, and to this day whenever the old covenant is being read, the same veil covers their minds so they cannot understand the truth. And this veil can be removed only by believing in Christ. 15 Yes, even today when they read Moses’ writings, their hearts are covered with that veil, and they do not understand.
16 But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. 17 For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. 18 So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord—who is the Spirit—makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image
(2 Corinthians 3:2-18 NLTse)
Black Obelisk of Shalmaneser III also has something to do with it because it keeps popping up in my reading, viewing, and study, which was somehow referenced in my Logos 5 Library Software reading and referencing the above verses. I have 4164 study Books, containing over 50 versions of the bible that I can read – more in original languages I cannot read without using other resources to decipher the words. I have illustrated dictionaries, lexicons, several map sets, books on the history of the church fathers, Egyptian history and it’s ancient writings, American history with with whole sets on everything from the civil war to the making of the constitution, World history, religions, and otherwise etc. which I can search the whole library for any word, phrase, topic, subject or whatever in literally seconds; pulling up literally thousands of references, book, chapter and page. It will even narrow it down to the verb tense, voice, mood, first second or third person, wild card etc. in Greek, Hebrew, Aramaic or English. This is not to mention the poetry, regular novels, true and fictional – instead of days or hours of research it does it in literally seconds and pulls it all together in an organized fashion. So here I sit cross-eyed and overwhelmed with all this information trying to sort through it for whatever I am supposed to see…
So, I keep reading, researching, studying, praying through it all; hoping to not miss the next exit ramp or get in the wrong lane of this super-highway of Theological, biblical, historical, philosophical information!
Well, I guess there’s nothing left to do but buckle my spiritual-theological seatbelt and hit the power button and blast-off on yet another journey into realms I have never gone before! (Again) I’ll tell you all about it when I get there…
The main and most important thing I DO KNOW is very simple, yet profoundly mysterious – Jesus Christ Saves! Thank God!
Daniel W Isrite
A Prayer of Moses:
1 Lord, through all the generations
you have been our home!
2 Before the mountains were born,
before you gave birth to the earth and the world,
from beginning to end, you are God.
3 You turn people back to dust, saying,
“Return to dust, you mortals!”
4 For you, a thousand years are as a passing day,
as brief as a few night hours.
5 You sweep people away like dreams that disappear.
They are like grass that springs up in the morning.
6 In the morning it blooms and flourishes,
but by evening it is dry and withered.
7 We wither beneath your anger;
we are overwhelmed by your fury.
8 You spread out our sins before you—
our secret sins—and you see them all.
9 We live our lives beneath your wrath,
ending our years with a groan.
10 Seventy years are given to us!
Some even live to eighty.
But even the best years are filled with pain and trouble;
soon they disappear, and we fly away.
11 Who can comprehend the power of your anger?
Your wrath is as awesome as the fear you deserve.
12 Teach us to realize the brevity of life,
so that we may grow in wisdom.
13 O L ord, come back to us!
How long will you delay?
Take pity on your servants!
14 Satisfy us each morning with your unfailing love,
so we may sing for joy to the end of our lives.
15 Give us gladness in proportion to our former misery!
Replace the evil years with good.
16 Let us, your servants, see you work again;
let our children see your glory.
17 And may the Lord our God show us his approval
and make our efforts successful.
Yes, make our efforts successful
(Psalms 90:1-17 NLTse)